Something about life in college:
College kickstarted with the orientation program which is now mandatory to receive a Bachelor of engineering degree in India. My stint at two colleges before helped me have the right expectations out of PSG Tech. AICTE has to be appreciated to in initiating the orientation program in all engineering colleges. Diving into calculus the very third day at college would have done more harm that one could imagine. I got an idea of how my department computer science and engineering would be like in the orientation. There's not much senior junior interaction here as opposed to most colleges. The sessions thankfully weren't as boring as one would normally expect out of these programs. I was surprised to see me volunteering to talk at every chance presented. My only focus was and is to improve my speech delivery and lessen my anxiety that I picked up in the last one year when I raised my hands. I was conscious of with whom I'm bonding and developing friendship. From mine and other's experience, the advice I got was to not settle for the first person or people you meet in college. I was asked to be open. Keeping this in mind, I partially went out of my way to invite people for lunch. I can't stand the concept of meeting one person this moment and calling him/her a bestie the next moment. From what I've read and felt, it takes atleast a semester to find people who truly resonate with you. So my focus was on being mindful and in the moment and genuine. I feel strongly that this is enough. I'm still a work in progress in this. I choreographed and presented a performance which is an experience I'll cherish forever. I've an Instagram post on it if you wish to know the details. Classes weren't pathetic. I would rate it a 3-3.5. I find the professor's genuine. I find the environment conducive. Not only me but everybody were excited for what was in store in engineering education.
Something about life outside college:
I did amazingly well in terms of my mental health when compared to the previous month. I was craving to sit in a desk and listen to lectures and see the board and take notes and I was taking it all in and it helped. A lot actually. I had numerous schedulesthat I planned to follow as a student all of which failed. I was switching between college and dance class. I'm happy I was occupied. I'm trying to get the best of every moment I'm in and I forget exactly this most times. I realise it's a difficult task and that all people want the exact same thing which they seek I'm different ways. People are always a work in progress in this section and it's a lifelong progress according to me. Looking back, even if I didn't touch my novel or do vlogs and blogs, I'm happy at how my life turned out in the last month. Mainly because I could be busy after 8 long months and didn't go insane. I'm still slipping when it comes to taking care of my health.
Something about my dance:
This month could see me head to the hostel terrace to practice ( I'm a dayski lol). Only for a handful of days though. I started off with the very first thattu adavu and could see it required more effort than a bhajan. I danced varnam jathis after years and didn't forget a step. People liked my dancing too which boosted my confidence. Self doubt is a constant companion in the case of an artist. It's a thin line between needing praise for confidence and needing praise for ego. I was busy practicing for the annual day of my dance class and I'm happy how dance was a constant companion this month. I also developed a deep desire to do my Arangetram after realising I haven't ever danced a full varnam or a solo for that matter. Hope it materialises.
Aaand, I want you to be grateful for the things that you need to do and things that keep you busy. Most times, we curse them and blaze through but without them, our life will have no meaning and our day will have no purpose.
Thank you for taking the time out to read :)
College kickstarted with the orientation program which is now mandatory to receive a Bachelor of engineering degree in India. My stint at two colleges before helped me have the right expectations out of PSG Tech. AICTE has to be appreciated to in initiating the orientation program in all engineering colleges. Diving into calculus the very third day at college would have done more harm that one could imagine. I got an idea of how my department computer science and engineering would be like in the orientation. There's not much senior junior interaction here as opposed to most colleges. The sessions thankfully weren't as boring as one would normally expect out of these programs. I was surprised to see me volunteering to talk at every chance presented. My only focus was and is to improve my speech delivery and lessen my anxiety that I picked up in the last one year when I raised my hands. I was conscious of with whom I'm bonding and developing friendship. From mine and other's experience, the advice I got was to not settle for the first person or people you meet in college. I was asked to be open. Keeping this in mind, I partially went out of my way to invite people for lunch. I can't stand the concept of meeting one person this moment and calling him/her a bestie the next moment. From what I've read and felt, it takes atleast a semester to find people who truly resonate with you. So my focus was on being mindful and in the moment and genuine. I feel strongly that this is enough. I'm still a work in progress in this. I choreographed and presented a performance which is an experience I'll cherish forever. I've an Instagram post on it if you wish to know the details. Classes weren't pathetic. I would rate it a 3-3.5. I find the professor's genuine. I find the environment conducive. Not only me but everybody were excited for what was in store in engineering education.
After a run during the sports hour as a part of the orientation program
Something about life outside college:
I did amazingly well in terms of my mental health when compared to the previous month. I was craving to sit in a desk and listen to lectures and see the board and take notes and I was taking it all in and it helped. A lot actually. I had numerous schedulesthat I planned to follow as a student all of which failed. I was switching between college and dance class. I'm happy I was occupied. I'm trying to get the best of every moment I'm in and I forget exactly this most times. I realise it's a difficult task and that all people want the exact same thing which they seek I'm different ways. People are always a work in progress in this section and it's a lifelong progress according to me. Looking back, even if I didn't touch my novel or do vlogs and blogs, I'm happy at how my life turned out in the last month. Mainly because I could be busy after 8 long months and didn't go insane. I'm still slipping when it comes to taking care of my health.
Something about my dance:
This month could see me head to the hostel terrace to practice ( I'm a dayski lol). Only for a handful of days though. I started off with the very first thattu adavu and could see it required more effort than a bhajan. I danced varnam jathis after years and didn't forget a step. People liked my dancing too which boosted my confidence. Self doubt is a constant companion in the case of an artist. It's a thin line between needing praise for confidence and needing praise for ego. I was busy practicing for the annual day of my dance class and I'm happy how dance was a constant companion this month. I also developed a deep desire to do my Arangetram after realising I haven't ever danced a full varnam or a solo for that matter. Hope it materialises.
Aaand, I want you to be grateful for the things that you need to do and things that keep you busy. Most times, we curse them and blaze through but without them, our life will have no meaning and our day will have no purpose.
Thank you for taking the time out to read :)
Some real truths to be understood đź‘Ź
ReplyDeleteThank you :) may I know who you are?
DeleteNoce Hema. Keep coming out of your comfort zone and yet stay within your self-happy zone.
ReplyDeleteLife is like a limited Validity Card with unlimited features. Make sure you see and experience all features of life with equal exuberance.
That's such an awesome comment Bala uncle. Keep such words coming...
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